FINALLY

FINALLY! I am no longer sick! It has been a two week thing. I think because I really didn't take much time to get better. I was well for about a day last week, but still didn't feel totally well, and today is the first day where I feel whole. It makes me a very happy, nicer person. I hate being sick because my personality is obsolete. I can't carry a conversation and I get depressed.
Enough of that though, I'm sick of sick. It has been crazy busy since school has started and it has been hard to find time for myself. I like being busy though (when I'm well), so it serves me well. The past couple of weeks have flown by, and there have been positives and negatives. (I sound like a yearbook I realize). My car is once again in the shop. I think that I have reached my year anniversiary with this car and I am beginning to think that it is cursed...either that, or I am cursed with all cars. I have a feeling it is the latter because I have gone through about 5 cars and I am 23. Yes, tis a curse. Anyway, I was driving the other night and it overheated or something and I couldn't continue on my journey. I pulled over, choked back the tears of frustration, and resigned myself to a life of bad luck with cars. I took it to the shop, it's $90 simply for the estimate...Depressing...so, depressing. All I can do is take it as a part of life because even though this is happening to me right now, much worse things are happening to others elsewhere. Everyone has their cross to bear. So I've been taking the train everywhere, and it has been much cheaper, and I really should do it on a regular basis, but I'm sure that once I get my car back I will use it because it cuts back the time it takes to ride the train. I should ride the train though. I feel guilty when I don't ride it.

Sick

I am miserably sick right now. I have a feeling that I have pushed myself too hard. For me, I tend to take on more than I should. My mom said that she really hasn't seen me rest since school has started. I did not sleep last night at all and i felt extremely nauseated. This morning I got up and ready to go to a meeting with my professor because I am struggling with a paper that I have to write and immediately had to throw up. The entire day has been filled with me repeating this action. Miserable. I had to call my professor and tell her I couldn't come. I started crying because I am lame like that, and I am a huge stress ball. It is a bit much. I could barely stand staying in bed all day.

NIN

Last night I was able to (FINALLY) use the birthday present that Brent got me. He got me tickets to see Nine Inch Nails in concert! I have to say that I have a new found respect instilled in me after seeing them live. It was an incredible experience, and I found myself acting like those crazy fans that I usually make fun of. You know, the girls at like the Beatles concerts back in the day (exempt fainting). I didn't think that a band could get me so excited, and truly envoke an emotion so strong in me. The entire time my excitment was surging through my veins like a drug, and now (also like a drug) I seem to be addicted. This all sounds a bit corny I realize, but honestly, I count it as one of the highlights of my life. They played for 2 1/2 hours, and I wish that they would have played longer. I didn't have general admission, so I couldn't go and mosh or anything like that, but I had a really great view of the stage from where I was sitting, so I was very grateful. Trent Resnor was ingenius and is still a genius. He has an incredible stage presence and is a real showman. They had state of the art, not to mention innovative graphics. At one point the stage set changed and they brought an upright bass on stage to perform "Piggy." I was blown away that this was an instrument of choice for what is sometimes assumed to be a band with little culture by people who don't know them. I feel as if Trent has stripped away many of the stereotypes tagged onto him and his band and has gone above what many normal artists can do. He is versatile and has an incredibly strong, diverse portfolio of great music. I felt that everything about the concert was immaculate and so beautiful. I loved every bit of it, my attention was held the entire time. It is always a very pleasant surprise when you go into something loving a band, yet at the same time have such high expectations for them to be so much better live, and they not only exceed all your expectations, but irrevokably astound you. I have posted a small clip of an intermediary/transitional period. This was one of my favorite stage sets. There was also another one for the song "Only" where there was a translucent screen in front of the band, and another regular screen behind where Trent was able to seemingly create voids in the static. Meaning, that wherever he walked on stage, a black void would surround him creating a hole in the front screen of static. The illusional aspect of it was amazing, like he had an aura that pushed through the static. At another point the stage went completely black while he was singing, and they had only the screen which was also blank. He had a camera do a close up of his face in a grainy night vision mode that only showed his mouth and the microphone (it showed other parts of his face at other times) blown up on the enormous screen. You didn't realize what it was at first, but it seemed almost collective when the crowd grasped that it was his face. Once the realization hit, he stepped out in front of the screen with the camera man where we could only see their silouhettes in front of the enormous televised face. I was blown away by his use of technology, but also how his use of technology was so harmonious with the industrial aire of his music. Ok, so the clip will have to be installed later...It is taking too long, and I have to go to work.